The
Windmill
By Hans Christian Andersen
(1865)
A windmill stood upon the hill, proud to
look at, and it was proud too.
' I am not proud at all,' it said, ' but I
am very much enlightened without and within.
I have sun and moon for my outward use, and
for inward use too ; and into the bargain I
have stearine candles, train oil lamps, and
tallow candles ; I may well say that I'm
enlightened. I am a thinking being, and so
well constructed that it 's quite delightful.
I have a good set of millstones in my chest,
and I have four wings that are placed
outside my head, just beneath my hat ; the
birds have only two wings, and are obliged
to carry them on their backs. I am a
Dutchman by birth, that may be seen by my
figure a flying Dutchman. They are
considered supernatural beings, I know, and
yet I am quit natural. I have a gallery
round my chest, and house-room beneath it ;
that 's where my thoughts dwell. My
strongest thought, who rules and reigns, is
called by
the others " the man in the mill ". He knows
what he wants, and is lord over the meal and
the bran ; but he has his companion too, and
she is called " Mother ". She is the very
heart of me. She does not run about stupidly
and awkwardly, for she knows what she wants,
she knows
what she can do, she 's as soft as a zephyr
and as strong as a storm ; she knows how to
begin a thing carefully, and to have her own
way. She is my soft temper, and the father
is my hard one : they are two, and yet one ;
they each call the other " My half ". These
two have some little boys,
young thoughts, that can grow. The little
ones keep everything stirring. When, lately,
in my wisdom, I let the father and the boys
examine the millstones and the wheels in my
chest, to see what was going on there for
something in me was out of order, and it 's
well to examine oneself the little ones made
a tremendous noise, which is not a becoming
thing when one stands on a hill as I do ;
there one must remember that one stands in a
strong light that of public opinion. Well,
as I was saying, the young ones made a
terrible noise. The youngest jumped up into
my hat, and shouted there so that it tickled
me. The little thoughts may grow ; I know
that very well ; and out in the world
thoughts come too, and not only of my kind,
for as far as I can see I cannot discern
anything like myself ; but the wingless
houses, whose throats make no noise, have
thoughts too, and these come to my thoughts,
and make love to them, as it is called. It
's wonderful enough yes, there are many
wonderful things. Something has come over me,
or into me, something has changed in the
mill-work : it seems as if the one-half, the
father, had altered, and had received a
better temper and a more affectionate
helpmate so young and good, and yet the
same, only more gentle and good through the
course of time. What was bitter has passed
away, and the whole is much more comfortable.
' The days go on, and the days come nearer
and nearer to clearness and to joy ; and
then a day will come when it will be over
with me ; but not over altogether. I must be
pulled down that I may be built up again ; I
shall cease, but yet shall live on. To
become quite a different being, and yet
remain the same ! That 's difficult for me
to understand, however enlightened I may be
with sun, moon, stearine, train oil, and
tallow. My old wood-work and my old brick
-work will rise again from the dust !
I will hope that I may keep my old thoughts,
the father in the mill, and the mother,
great ones and little ones the family ; for
I call them all, great and little, the
company of thoughts, because I must, and
cannot refrain from it.
' And I must also remain " myself ", with my
throat in my chest, my wings on my head, the
gallery round my body ; else I should not
know myself, nor could the others know me,
and say, " There 's the mill on the hill,
proud to look at, and yet not proud at all."
That is what the mill said. Indeed, it said
much more, but that is the most important
part.
And the days came, and the days went, and
yesterday was the last day.
Then the mill caught fire. The flames rose
up high, and beat out and in, and bit at the
beams and planks, and ate them up. The mill
fell, and nothing remained of it but a heap
of ashes. The smoke drove across the scene
of the conflagration, and the wind carried
it away.
Whatever had been alive in the mill remained,
and lost nothing by that event ; it actually
gained by it.
The miller's family one soul, many thoughts,
and yet only one built a new, a splendid
mill, which answered its purpose. It was
quite like the old one, and people said, '
Why, yonder is the mill on the hill, proud
to look at ! ' But this mill was better
arranged, more up to date than the last, so
that progress might be made. The old beams
had became worm-eaten and spongy they lay in
dust and ashes. The body of the mill did not
rise out of the dust as they had believed it
would do : they had taken the words
literally, and all things are not to be
taken literally.
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