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									"The Girl Who Trod on the Loaf" 
                                    By Hans Christian Andersen 
                                    (1859) 
                                     
                                    The story of the girl who trod on the loaf 
									to avoid soiling her shoes, and of the 
									misfortune that befell this girl, is well 
									known. It has been written, and even printed.
									 
									 
									She was a poor child, but proud and 
									presumptuous ; there was a bad foundation in 
									her, as the saying is. When she was quite a 
									little child, it was her delight to catch 
									flies and tear off their wings, so as to 
									make them into creeping things. She would 
									take cockchafers and beetles, and  
									spit them on pins. Then she pushed a green 
									leaf or a little scrap of paper towards 
									their feet, and the poor creatures seized 
									it, and held it fast, and turned it over and 
									over, struggling to get free from the pin.
									 
									 
									' The cockchafer is reading, said little 
									Inger. ' See how he turns the leaf ! '  
									 
									With years she grew worse rather than better 
									; but she was pretty, and that was her 
									misfortune ; otherwise she would have been 
									more sharply reproved than she was.  
									 
									' Your headstrong will requires something 
									strong to break it ! ' her own mother often 
									said. ' As a little child, you used to 
									trample on my apron ; but I fear you will 
									one  
									day trample on my heart.'  
									 
									And that is what she really did.  
									 
									She was sent into the country, into service 
									in the house of rich people, who treated her 
									as their own child, and dressed her 
									accordingly. She looked well, and her 
									presumption increased.  
									 
									When she had been there about a year, her 
									mistress said to her, ' You ought now to 
									visit your parents, Inger.  
									 
									And she went too, but it was only to show 
									herself, that they might see how grand she 
									had become ; but when she came to the 
									entrance of the village, and the young 
									husbandmen and maids stood there chatting, 
									and her own mother appeared among them, 
									sitting on a stone to rest, and with a 
									faggot of sticks before her that she had 
									picked up in the wood, then Inger turned 
									back, for she felt ashamed that she, who was 
									so finely dressed, should have for a mother
									 
									a ragged woman, who picked up wood in the 
									forest. She did not in the least feel sorry 
									for having turned back, she was only annoyed.
									 
									 
									And another half-year went by, and her 
									mistress said again, ' You ought to go to 
									your home, and visit your old parents, 
									Inger. I'll make you a present of a great 
									wheaten loaf that you may give to them : 
									they will certainly be glad to see you again.'
									 
									 
									And Inger put on her best clothes, and her 
									new shoes, and drew her skirts around her, 
									and set out, stepping very carefully, that 
									she might be clean and neat about the feet ; 
									and there was no harm in that. But when she 
									came to the place where the footway led 
									across the marsh, and where there was mud 
									and puddles, she threw the loaf into the mud, 
									and trod upon it to pass over without 
									wetting her feet. But as she stood there 
									with one foot upon the loaf and the other 
									uplifted to step farther, the loaf sank with 
									her, deeper and deeper, till she disappeared 
									altogether, and only a great puddle, from 
									which the bubbles rose, remained where she 
									had been.  
									 
									And that 's the story.  
									 
									But whither did Inger go ? She went down to 
									the marsh woman, who is always brewing there. 
									The marsh woman is cousin to the elf maidens, 
									who are w r ell enough known, of whom songs 
									are sung, and of whom pictures are painted ; 
									but concerning the marsh woman it is only 
									known that when the meadows steam in 
									summertime it is because she is brewing. 
									Into the marsh  
									woman's brewery did Inger sink down ; and no 
									one can endure that place long. A box of mud 
									is a palace compared with the marsh woman's 
									brewery. Every barrel there had an odour 
									that almost takes away one's senses ; and 
									the barrels stand close to each other ; and 
									wherever there is a little opening among 
									them, through which one might push one's way, 
									then one cannot get through for the number 
									of damp toads and fat snakes who are all in 
									a tangle there. Among this company did Inger 
									fall ; and all the horrible mass of living 
									creeping things was so icy cold, that she 
									shuddered in all her limbs , and became 
									stark and stiff. She continued fastened to 
									the loaf, and the loaf drew her down as an 
									amber button draws a fragment of straw.  
									 
									The marsh woman was at home, and on that day 
									the Devil and his grandmother had come to 
									inspect the brewery ; and she is a venomous 
									old woman, who is never idle : she never 
									rides out to pay a visit without taking her 
									work with her ; she also had it here. She 
									sewed gadding  
									leather to be worked into men's shoes, and 
									that makes them wander about unable to 
									settle anywhere. She wove webs of lies, and 
									strung together hastily-spoken words that 
									had fallen to the ground ; and all this was 
									done for the injury and ruin of mankind. Yes, 
									indeed, she knew how to sew, to weave, and 
									to string, did this old grandmother !  
									 
									Catching sight of Inger, she put up her 
									double eye-glass, and took another look at 
									the girl.  
									 
									1 That 's a girl who has ability ! ' she 
									observed, ' and I beg you will give me the 
									little one as a memento of my visit here . 
									She 'I make a capital statue to stand in my 
									grandson 's antechamber.'  
									 
									And Inger was given up to her, and this is 
									how Inger came into Hell. People don't 
									always go there by the direct path, but they 
									can get there by roundabout routes if they 
									have a tendency in that direction.  
									 
									That was a never-ending antechamber. The 
									visitor became giddy who looked forward, and 
									doubly giddy when he looked back, and saw a 
									whole crowd of people, almost utterly 
									exhausted, waiting till the gate of mercy 
									should be opened to them they had to wait a 
									long time ! Great fat waddling spiders spun 
									webs of a thousand years over their feet, 
									and these webs cut like wire, and bound them 
									like bronze fetters ; and, moreover, there 
									was an eternal unrest working in every heart 
									a miserable Unrest. The miser stood there, 
									and had forgotten the key of his strong box, 
									and he knew the key was sticking in the lock. 
									It would take too long to describe the 
									various sorts of torture that were found 
									there together. Inger felt a terrible pain 
									while she had to stand there as a statue, 
									for she was tied fast to the loaf.  
									 
									' That 's the fruit of wishing to keep one's 
									feet neat and tidy she said to herself. ' 
									Just look how they're all staring at me ! '
									 
									 
									Yes, certainly, the eyes of all were fixed 
									upon her, and their evil thoughts gleamed 
									forth from their eyes, and they spoke to one 
									another, moving their lips, from which no 
									sound whatever came forth : they were very 
									horrible to behold.  
									 
									' It must be a great pleasure to look at me 
									! ' thought Inger, ' and indeed I have a 
									pretty face and fine clothes.' And she 
									turned her eyes ; her neck was too stiff to 
									turn. But she had not considered how her 
									clothes had been soiled in the marsh woman's 
									brewhouse. Her garments were covered with 
									mud ; a snake had fastened in her hair, and 
									dangled down her back ; and out of each fold 
									of her frock a great toad looked forth, 
									croaking like an asthmatic poodle. That was 
									very unpleasant. ' But all the rest of them 
									down here also look horrible,' she observed 
									to herself,  
									and derived consolation from the thought.
									 
									 
									The worst of all was the terrible hunger 
									that tormented her. But could she not stoop 
									and break off a piece of the loaf on which 
									she stood ? No, her back was too stiff, her 
									hands and arms were benumbed, and her whole 
									body was like a pillar of stone ; she was 
									only able to turn her eyes in  
									her head, to turn them quite round, so that 
									she could see backwards : it was an ugly 
									sight. And then the flies came up, and crept 
									to and fro over her eyes, and she blinked 
									her eyes, but the flies would not go away, 
									for they could not fly : their wings had 
									been pulled out, so that they were  
									converted into creeping insects : it was 
									horrible torment added to the hunger,forshe 
									felt empty, quite, entirely empty.  
									 
									' If this lasts much longer,' she said, ' I 
									shall not be able to bear it.'  
									 
									But she had to bear it, and it lasted on and 
									on.  
									 
									Then a hot tear fell down upon her head, 
									rolled over her face and neck, down on to 
									the loaf on which she stood ; and then 
									another tear rolled down, followed by many 
									more. Who might be weeping for Inger ? Had 
									she not still a mother in the world ? The 
									tears of sorrow which a mother weeps for her 
									child always make their way to the child ; 
									but they do not relieve it, they only 
									increase its torment. And now to bear this 
									unendurable hunger, and yet not to be able 
									to touch the loaf on which she stood ! She 
									felt as if she had been feeding on herself, 
									and had become  
									like a thin hollow reed that takes in every 
									sound, for she heard everything that was 
									said of her up in the world, and all that 
									she heard was hard and evil. Her mother, 
									indeed, wept much and sorrowed for her, but 
									for all that she said, ' A haughty spirit 
									goes before a fall. That was thy ruin,  
									Inger. Thou hast sorely grieved thy mother.'
									 
									 
									Her mother and all on earth knew of the sin 
									she had committed ; knew that she had 
									trodden upon the loaf, and had sunk and 
									disappeared ; for the cowherd had seen it 
									from the hill beside the marsh.  
									 
									1 Greatly hast thou grieved thy mother, 
									Inger said the mother ; ' yes, yes, I 
									thought it would be thus.'  
									 
									' Oh that I had never been born ! ' thought 
									Inger ; ' it would have been far better. But 
									what use is my mother's weeping now ? '  
									 
									And she heard how her master and mistress, 
									who had kept and cherished her like kind 
									parents, now said she was a sinful child, 
									and did not value the gifts of God, but 
									trampled them under her feet, and that the 
									gates of mercy would only open slowly to 
									her.  
									 
									' They should have punished me,' thought 
									Inger, ' and have driven out the whims I had 
									in my head.'  
									 
									She heard how a complete song was made about 
									her, a song of the proud girl who trod upon 
									the loaf to keep her shoes clean, and she 
									heard how the song was sung everywhere.  
									 
									' That I should have to bear so much evil 
									for that ! ' thought Inger ; ' the others 
									ought to be punished, too, for their sins. 
									Yes, then there would be plenty of punishing 
									to do. Ah, how I'm being tortured ! '  
									 
									And her heart became harder than her outward 
									form.  
									 
									' Here in this company one can't even become 
									better she said, ' and I don't want to becom 
									better ! Look, how they're all staring at me 
									! ' And her heart was full of anger and 
									malice against all men. ' Now they've 
									something to talk about at last up yonder. 
									Ah, how I'm being tortured ! '  
									 
									And then she heard how her story was told to 
									the little children, and the little ones 
									called her the godless Inger, and said she 
									was so naughty and ugly that she must be 
									well punished  
									 
									Thus even the children's mouths spoke hard 
									words of her.  
									 
									But one day, while grief arid hunger gnawed 
									her hollow frame, and she heard her name 
									mentioned and her story told to an innocent 
									child, a little girl, she became aware that 
									the little one burst into tears at the tale 
									of the haughty, vain Inger.  
									 
									' But will Inger never coine up here again ? 
									' asked the little girl.  
									 
									And the reply was, ' She will never come up 
									again.'  
									 
									' But if she were to beg for forgiveness, 
									and say she would never do so again ? '  
									 
									' But she will not beg for forgiveness,' was 
									the reply.  
									 
									' I should be so glad if she would,' said 
									the little girl ; and she was quite 
									inconsolable. ' I'll give my doll and all my 
									playthings if she may only come up. It 's 
									too dreadful poor Inger ! '  
									 
									And these words penetrated to Inger's heart, 
									and seemed to do her good. It was the first 
									time any one had said, ' Poor Inger,' 
									without adding anything about her faults : a 
									little innocent child was weeping and 
									praying for her. It made her feel quite 
									strangely, and she herself would gladly have 
									wept, but she could not weep, and that was a 
									torment in itself.  
									 
									While years were passing above her, for 
									where she was there was no change, she heard 
									herself spoken of more and more seldom. At 
									last one day a sigh struck on her ear : ' 
									Inger, Inger, how you have grieved me ! I 
									said how it would be ! ' It was the last 
									sigh of her dying mother.  
									 
									Occasionally she heard her name spoken by 
									her former employers, and they were pleasant 
									words when the woman said, ' Shall I ever 
									see thee again, Inger ? One knows not what 
									may happen.'  
									 
									But Inger knew right well that her good 
									mistress would never come to the place where 
									she was.  
									 
									And again time went on a long, bitter time. 
									Then Inger heard her name pronounced once 
									more, and saw two bright stars that seemed 
									gleaming above her. They were two gentle 
									eyes closing upon earth. So many years had 
									gone by since the little girl had been 
									inconsolable and wept  
									about ' poor Inger ', that the child had 
									become an old woman, who was now to be 
									called home to heaven ; and in the last hour 
									of existence, when the events of the whole 
									life stand at once before us, the old woman 
									remembered how as a child she had cried 
									heartily at the story of Inger.  
									That time and that impression came so 
									clearly before the old woman in her last 
									hour, that she called out quite loud : ' 
									Have not I also, like Inger, often trod upon 
									the gifts of heaven without thinking ? have 
									not I also gone about with pride at my heart 
									? Yet Thou in Thy mercy hast not let me 
									sink, but hast held me up. Leave me not in 
									my last hour ! '  
									 
									And the eyes of the old woman closed, and 
									the eye of her soul was opened to look upon 
									the hidden things. She, in whose last 
									thoughts Inger had been present so vividly, 
									saw how deeply the poor girl had sunk, and 
									burst into tears at the sight ; in heaven 
									she stood like a child, and wept  
									for poor Inger. And her tears and prayers 
									sounded like an echo in the dark empty space 
									that surrounded the tormented captive soul, 
									and the unhoped-for love from above 
									conquered her, for an angel was weeping for 
									her. Why was this vouchsafed to her ? The 
									tormented soul seemed to gather in her 
									thoughts every deed she had done on earth, 
									and she, Inger, trembled and wept such tears 
									as she had never yet wept. She was filled 
									with sorrow about herself : it seemed as 
									though the gate of mercy could never open to 
									her ; and while in deep penitence she 
									acknow-  
									ledged this, a beam of light shot radiantly 
									down into the depths to her ; with a greater 
									force than that of the sunbeam which melts 
									the snow man the boys have built up ; and 
									quicker than the snow-flake .melts, and 
									becomes a drop of water that falls on the 
									warm lips of a child, the stony form of 
									Inger was changed to mist, and a little bird 
									soared with the speed of lightning upward 
									into the world of men. But the bird was 
									timid and shy towards all things around ; it 
									was ashamed of itself, ashamed to encounter 
									any living thing, and hurriedly sought to 
									conceal itself in a dark hole in an old 
									crumbling wall ; there it sat cowering, 
									trembling through its whole frame, and 
									unable to utter a sound, for it had no voice. 
									Long it sat there before it could rightly 
									see all the beauty around it ; for beauty 
									there was. The air was fresh and mild, the 
									moon shone so clear ; trees and bushes 
									exhaled fragrance, and it was right pleasant 
									where it sat, and its coat of feathers was 
									clean and pure. How all creation seemed to 
									speak of beneficence and love ! The bird 
									wanted to sing of the thoughts that stirred 
									in its breast, but it could not ; gladly 
									would it have sung as the cuckoo and the 
									nightingale sang in spring-time. But Heaven, 
									that hears the mute song of  
									praise of the worm, could hear the notes of 
									praise which now trembled in the breast of 
									the bird, as David's psalms were heard 
									before they had fashioned themselves into 
									words and song.  
									 
									For weeks these toneless songs stirred 
									within the bird ; at last, the holy 
									Christmas -time approached. The peasant who 
									dwelt near set up a pole by the old wall, 
									with some ears of corn bound to the top, 
									that the birds of heaven might have a good 
									meal, and rejoice in the happy, blessed 
									time.  
									 
									And on Christmas morning the sun arose and 
									shone upon the ears of corn, which were 
									surrounded by a number of twittering birds. 
									Then out of the hole in the wall streamed
									 
									forth the voice of another bird, and the 
									bird soared forth from its hiding-place ; 
									and in heaven it was well known what bird 
									this was.  
									 
									It was a hard winter. The ponds were covered 
									with ice, and the beasts of the field and 
									the birds of the air were stinted for food. 
									Our little bird flew away over the high road, 
									and in the ruts of the sledges it found here 
									and there a grain of corn, and at the 
									halting-places some crumbs. Of these it ate 
									only a few, but it called all the other 
									hungry sparrows around it, that they, too, 
									might have some food. It flew into the towns, 
									and looked round about ; and whereever a 
									kind hand had strewn bread on the 
									window-sill for the birds, it only ate a 
									single crumb itself, and gave all  
									the rest to the other birds.  
									 
									In the course of the winter, the bird had 
									collected so many bread crumbs, and given 
									them to the other birds, that they equalled 
									the weight of the loaf on which Inger had 
									trod to keep her shoes clean ; and when the 
									last bread crumb had been found and given, 
									the grey wings of the bird became white, and 
									spread far out.  
									 
									' Yonder is a sea-swallow, flying away 
									across the water,' said the children when 
									they saw the white bird. Now it dived into 
									the sea, and now it rose again into the 
									clear sunlight. It gleamed white ; but no 
									one could tell whither it went, though some 
									asserted that it flew straight into  
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